From writing & personal

Showing Up In Life

I made a short video on this on my Instagram post today on this topic. I asked a simple question(s), “Do you show up for yourself in every area of your life?” And most importantly do you show up for yourself? Which is more important because how you show up for yourself sets the tone for how you show up for yourself in every area of your life. If you don’t show up for yourself in your life, I truly don’t expect for you to tell me that you actually have a fulfilling life and that every other area of…

Our Education System & Society

For as long as I can remember our Education System have made a lot of us feel as if we were incompetent and not capable of becoming someone important within our society. Ever since we were children we have been set to these standards to which only a selected few meet and exceed. If we do not meet or exceed these standards then we are deemed as not being intelligent individuals fully capable of having great careers and or being able to live a great life. This sadly is the ugly truth. I remember all throughout my academic career I…

The Pursuit of Happiness

This is a post about how you can pretty much have everything and feel nothing all at the same time. We as individuals love to say, “When I have this I’ll be happy.” I’m here to tell you that you can have it all or at least be on the path where you are starting to receive these material things and still not feel happy, whole, complete, you still feel like there is something missing. You are never going to be content with whatever exterior item or desire you are wanting. That’s what I would like to call instant gratification…

Our Inner Child’s Role In the Now

As an adult I still have certain moments where I throw tantrums over the silliest things. After my mini tantrum I truly have to dig deep and ask myself where all of that emotion came from. Whether we understand it or not, the child in us never goes away. The child in us remains with us until the moment we leave this earth but the thing that changes as the years go by are our bodies and our appearance. At what age did an adult or someone older than you say those deadly words of, “You have to grow up?!”…

The Value of You

I was browsing through Instagram just a couple of minutes ago and came across a post that said, “My mom always says that when you meet the male version of yourself, is when you will meet the love of your life.” To my surprise a lot of the comments on the post went something like this, “Fuck no! Why would I want that I can barely handle myself.” And, “Ugh, Sounds dreadful. I want someone better.” And “No thanks, I don’t need any other type of me in my life.” And the one that hurt my heart a little was…

Why Being Your Most Authentic Self Is the Road Less Traveled

Authentic- Adjective. Not False or Copied. Genuine; real. A few months ago I embarked on a journey to becoming my most authentic self for several of reasons. Mainly because I was extremely tired of truly being someone that I wasn’t. I had this facade going on and it took me awhile to admit what I was doing and what was going on. I wasn’t putting myself first, my wants, needs and I sure as hell wasn’t taking my feelings into consideration. I was compromising myself to please others and to live by what they deemed to be the right way…

Breaking the Habit: Overcoming Depression

I think that for a long time I felt that I didn’t think life could get better for me. For a long time I felt as if though I was brought into this world to suffer, to go through some of the most horrendous things.  I would look at the world around me and I felt as if though everyone else’s life was perfect. It sure seemed that way. For a long time I longed for closeness within my family, for my parents to get their shit together when it came to their relationship, for my godmother to stop threatening…

Mirrors: It’s not them, It’s you

Have you ever heard someone say, “it’s not you, it’s me.” We’ve always known that’s the biggest lie ever, right? The truth is it was never them and it was always you. If you never heard that before but always wondered why relationships were going wrong, why bosses were always mistreating you, why family relationships or friendships were sour, it wasn’t them, it was you. I spent years trying to figure out why certain patterns were playing out in my life. I found it odd and even thought I was cursed. Then I started reading a lot, I came across…

To All The Men I Hurt

I want to start off by apologizing to all of the men that I could have possibly hurt along the way of me trying to heal the wounds that some of you didn’t create but tried to help me mend. I think for the most part I tried to protect a lot of you from me and some of you were so persistent, so instead of being strong enough and standing my ground I caved and let you all into my ring of fire. I think a lot of you thought that you could be my knight and protector, the…

Making Peace With It All

I’m making peace with my past, every single demon that was once there is disappearing bit by bit. I’m starting to realize that the more I face these demons head on one by one, the lighter I feel. I acknowledge that some of these demons that have been here with me are because I didn’t want to take responsibility for them being there. I gave them light, in fact I handed them the fuel to light the fire. As the weeks go by I release each demon one by one and I thank them for what they showed me, but…