Tagged love

Our Inner Child’s Role In the Now

As an adult I still have certain moments where I throw tantrums over the silliest things. After my mini tantrum I truly have to dig deep and ask myself where all of that emotion came from. Whether we understand it or not, the child in us never goes away. The child in us remains with us until the moment we leave this earth but the thing that changes as the years go by are our bodies and our appearance. At what age did an adult or someone older than you say those deadly words of, “You have to grow up?!”…

The Value of You

I was browsing through Instagram just a couple of minutes ago and came across a post that said, “My mom always says that when you meet the male version of yourself, is when you will meet the love of your life.” To my surprise a lot of the comments on the post went something like this, “Fuck no! Why would I want that I can barely handle myself.” And, “Ugh, Sounds dreadful. I want someone better.” And “No thanks, I don’t need any other type of me in my life.” And the one that hurt my heart a little was…

Why Being Your Most Authentic Self Is the Road Less Traveled

Authentic- Adjective. Not False or Copied. Genuine; real. A few months ago I embarked on a journey to becoming my most authentic self for several of reasons. Mainly because I was extremely tired of truly being someone that I wasn’t. I had this facade going on and it took me awhile to admit what I was doing and what was going on. I wasn’t putting myself first, my wants, needs and I sure as hell wasn’t taking my feelings into consideration. I was compromising myself to please others and to live by what they deemed to be the right way…

Breaking the Habit: Overcoming Depression

I think that for a long time I felt that I didn’t think life could get better for me. For a long time I felt as if though I was brought into this world to suffer, to go through some of the most horrendous things.  I would look at the world around me and I felt as if though everyone else’s life was perfect. It sure seemed that way. For a long time I longed for closeness within my family, for my parents to get their shit together when it came to their relationship, for my godmother to stop threatening…

Mirrors: It’s not them, It’s you

Have you ever heard someone say, “it’s not you, it’s me.” We’ve always known that’s the biggest lie ever, right? The truth is it was never them and it was always you. If you never heard that before but always wondered why relationships were going wrong, why bosses were always mistreating you, why family relationships or friendships were sour, it wasn’t them, it was you. I spent years trying to figure out why certain patterns were playing out in my life. I found it odd and even thought I was cursed. Then I started reading a lot, I came across…

To All The Men I Hurt

I want to start off by apologizing to all of the men that I could have possibly hurt along the way of me trying to heal the wounds that some of you didn’t create but tried to help me mend. I think for the most part I tried to protect a lot of you from me and some of you were so persistent, so instead of being strong enough and standing my ground I caved and let you all into my ring of fire. I think a lot of you thought that you could be my knight and protector, the…

Making Peace With It All

I’m making peace with my past, every single demon that was once there is disappearing bit by bit. I’m starting to realize that the more I face these demons head on one by one, the lighter I feel. I acknowledge that some of these demons that have been here with me are because I didn’t want to take responsibility for them being there. I gave them light, in fact I handed them the fuel to light the fire. As the weeks go by I release each demon one by one and I thank them for what they showed me, but…

What You Can Do When Impatience Starts Kicking In: As I get Older I Realize I’m A lot More Patient

It seems that from the moment I started to identify my reasoning for being extremely impatient I started developing patience. I guess I made a deal with myself to get to know me better because unless I truly know who I am and what my triggers are, how can I expect for anyone to truly know me and understand me? At the beginning of January 2018 I was told that I had let a lot of amazing opportunities go because I had no patience. I didn’t allow certain opportunities to play out fully or I would say I didn’t have…

Staying true to you

It’s been well over 3 years since I last wrote something here, I was even debating taking down my first post ever. It kind of makes me cringe a bit reading over it, but I decided to leave it alone for the sake that it’s a part of my story. Over the last few years a lot of things have changed. Everything from my personality to my goals and dreams. People change, seasons change, everything truly does change, but I’d like to think that everything changes for the better. Things truly do get better as the time goes by. For…